What to do????

Im at a loss for words right now...
How can something that was once so great and amazing turn into hell over the course of a few months???
What am I doing so terribly wrong that is making this happen?

I have always had this big perspective, or dream, that I would go to college, be a dance team member or twirlerm fall in love, get my degree, start a career, get engaged, get married, have a great marriage, have 3 great kids, and grow old with my lover and be happy... IN THAT ORDER!!!.. I know life is not perfect and everyone encounters conflict, but this is beyond conflict! This is a never ending cycle of crap!

I graduated HS, was in a bad relationship, went to community college met a guy got engaged, he joined the military, I went a semester at a college I loved, then packed up and moved thousands of miles away to be with him, giving up everything I wanted, including my family and friends so he could have his career, switched to online classes, got pregnant, moved down here to GA, and now get to deal being a house wife, soon to be mom, and slave to my unappreciative husband who cant even hang up a towl after a shower.... I also get ignored 98% of the time due to his stupid video gaming habits and if i try to make conversation while hes playing... then Im nagging (According to him)

In the last 6 months I have been told:

Shut the F* Up
He didnt want a kid
We have nothing in common
he's only with me cuz of the baby
he loves me
Im lazy (even though i go to school full time to where my gpa is awesome, do all the house work, etc)
he brings home the money and I do nothing (even though house work and waiting on him and gonna be mom is NOTHING .... NOT)
and tons more...

We have faught to the point where spilting up has came up a few times...I have tried to leave.. it doesnt work.. Im soo tired of trying to work stuff out with someone doesnt appreciate anything I do and just puts me down all the time...

I know I deserve better than this...
but Im at a loss of what to do..
Yes I am living off his money.. but I do not buy stuff for myself at all,,,, i use the money to pay OUR bills and to buy OUR groceries and that is it!!! I do not spend $$ on extras...

If i leave I have no $$$ to go anywhere and no car or anything... but if i stay i get put down and critized constantly and am depressed and alone thousands of miles away from any real friends or family...

LIFE SUCKS..... I just want to feel loved and appreciated for who I am as a person! I want someone to love me for ME and my traits.. not what they WANT me to be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!